Officially, I am 5 days post Whole 30. It's finally feeling like summer and I feel outstanding! My accomplishments with the Whole 30 were this.... I lost 5 prescription medications for my Lupus and its side effects. I have learned so much about what is in foods that I thought were "good for me" like gluten free substitutes for pasta,crackers,cereal etc. I no longer want sugar unless it is from natural sources. My energy levels are the best I can remember. I don't need a nap everyday and my night sleeping is so sound. I have been able to hang out and play with the boys. I also lost 18 pounds. I know that is a significant amount. I also know that this is a long journey and not a sprint for me. Becoming aware of that and my twisted relationship with food and alcohol is my favorite lesson I learned through the Whole 30.
I'm pretty sure I am not the only one who uses food and alcohol to soothe themselves. I also do it to "fix" everybody else. If things get hard, uncomfortable or emotional , I will gladly whip up a 17lb lasagna and open as many bottles of wine it takes. I will do what ever needs to be done to avoid dealing with mine or anybody else around me, when they are upset. I thought for sure getting fed and tipsy was just what the doctor ordered. Apparently, I was wrong. Instead, over the last 30+ days I have cried, argued, put myself in time out and rationally discussed all kinds of things. It was crazy hard but one of the most important things I learned about myself! So, yeah me!
Now that I am free to eat all the things, I can't. I can not bring myself to just let loose and get gluttonous with food. I have decided to eat pretty close to Paleo & Whole 30 with a little tweaking. And by tweaking I mean booze & some cheese. I can not imagine not having feta & goat cheese. I love those things & they make other food just so much tastier. For the sake of my sanity and my family's well being I will have to have wine & vodka! Not in the same drink , but for relaxation & yummy goodness. I love a nice Pinot Noir at the end of the night! I need a vodka & lemonade on the boat! Those little things that make life slightly less hard are not going to steal my health! I never want to let Lupus and how it effects me be because of how I treat my body, EVER AGAIN!
So, this is my accountability post! I am going to continue running, eating well & enjoying my summer. We have so much fun planned as a family & just the hubs and I. I am going to thoroughly enjoy all the the things that July has in-store for us. I'm going to promise to try hard to not over think everything and wonder when the other shoe will drop. I won't let Lupus control my brain and creep in with the negative nagging of knowing that there is no cure. I will never be able to say I "used" to have Lupus, but what I can do is go into remission. I can tell everybody & everyone about how I "used" to feel and how much it controlled my participation in my life. I will be able to show off how I am living life to its fullest in spite of Lupus! Whole 30 round 2 starts August 1 2015! Anybody that loves themselves and the people around them can do this! 30 days can change your life!.
Take care of you ....