Monday, December 26, 2016

Feeding your soul with food of love.

     Here's the blog about why I need to do this thing.  I'm not sure what I'm even calling this thing.  There is one thing I know!  For as long as I can remember ,  I suck at being an emotionally vulnerable supportive person to just about everyone of the people I love and care about. What I don't suck at, is feeding them !  Your cat dies, I will make you a lasagna.  Your baby daddy is sleeping with your sister, I will make you white chicken chili.  You have a tooth ache, give birth, commit a felony or have a teenager, I will make you the baddest ass chicken noodle soup you have ever eaten! I can't watch Gilmore Girls or Lifetime movies,cry and hold your hand.  I suck at expressing how sorry I am when you are grieving the loss of your favorite lip gloss or the love your life.  I can however tell you how you need to pull your shit together, eat these delish things and get over yourself, him, her, them or whatever else that has your feelings butt hurt and standing on the edge of  a Ben & Jerry's bender. Feeding your soul matters!


     Feeding your soul matters!  Food is one of those things that when prepared with all the things in your heart and mind can heal even the worst of problems.  I realized how much taking care of people and feeding them well made me feel, when I became a mom.  I was young, dumb & mixed up about a lot of things,  But when I fed my oldest for the first time, it was magical!  He loved mangoes, strawberries, Thai food, hummus & just about any other food I made for him.  It felt so good. My heart was happy and I didn't think about the other trials and tribulations of being a lost 19 year old new mom. It was our thing!


     You can also starve your soul for a long time.  I also realized that Shortly after my second son was a little over a year old.  I lost my mom, tragically and unexpectedly.  I had no coping mechanisms or support.  I gave up on myself, my kids, my health and theirs.  I ate terribly. I drank a lot.  I let people I thought that loved me and my sons "help me" with taking care of them.  Because I just couldn't. It was my first tip-toe into letting food comfort me and them.  Not good food. Not healthy choices.  Not soul food.  Subsequently, I had one son who was eating well but now wouldn't.  My other son would eat frozen pancakes, chicken nuggets (of only one brand), grilled cheese and fries.  Complete nightmare.  I  was a hot mess internally and externally!  We were starving , in away I can explain.


     I had my light bulb moment! It took way longer than it should have, but I got it! It took a divorce, marrying my best friend, 2 more amazing sons, a handful of autoimmune disease diagnosis's, a laundry list of prescriptions medications and dozens of peaks and valleys!  My life was changed over a 6month process.  It started with Wheat Belly , By William Davis .  That helped a lot, with a lot of things but I still needed more.  I read a bunch of Paleo books and loved it.  Then I found the "cure" for me in Whole 30.  It was so damn hard! 30 days of planning, prepping , and fighting my negative self image. I've done a lot worse things for more than 30 days and none of them made me happy, strong, full, 50lbs lighter and off 8 medications.  That my friends is food of love!


     Food of love had me present for everything.  Games, practices, races, socializing and genuinely better.  However, it is also easy to slip back into old habits and bad behaviors when you can give yourself more excuses than you should.  I'm essentially back at the starting block & ready to jump in with an 80/20 eating, meal prep service for anyone who wants to do it with me! My menu will be posted on a Facebook Page on Thursday.  Orders can be placed until noon on Saturday.  Pick ups will be on Mondays!  I will be posting on my FB page about the food prep and getting back on my running training plan.  NOTHING makes me happier than being able to cook healthy, organic, always gluten free, mainly Paleo and almost Whole 30 compliant food for people! I want this life change for life.  Not 30 days, not one year but forever!  The accountability of having people counting on me to help them make healthy good choices in my yummy food, is the best thing ever!


Keep your eye open for Soul Food of Love FB page and your invitation to join me!


Take Care of you......

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